Showing posts with label gay pride. Show all posts
Showing posts with label gay pride. Show all posts

Monday, June 12, 2023

This Boise Life

 

Keanu Reeves and River Phoenix in My Own Private Idaho (1991) 

My Own Private Idaho is a 1991 film written and directed by Gus Van Sant. The story follows Mike Waters (Phoenix) and Scott Favor (Reeves) as they navigate their lives as male sex workers over the course of several months. For Mike, hustling is both a necessity in order to survive on the streets as well as a means to finance his search for his mother.  Although it is never explicitly stated, Mike is clearly gay and lives a lonely life. His search for his mother represents his desire for a connection, for a home, and a family. 

On the other hand, Scott is the son of the mayor of Portland, Oregon who "only has sex with men for money" and who claims that he will inherit a fortune on his 21st birthday and retire from hustling. He comes from a place of privilege and his hustling seems to be more about rebelling against his family and hurting his father. 

Their journey of personal discovery takes them from Seattle, to Idaho (Mike's hometown), Portland, and even Rome. 

This film is one that is difficult for me to watch, even today. I was just 17 when this movie premiered in the September of 1991 and struggling with coming out to my family and friends, so I was close in age to the characters in this film and lived with the fear of being thrown out on the streets for being gay. One reason this film is so difficult for me to watch is due to a scene about the middle of the film. It takes place between Mike and Scott late at night under a full moon as they sit by a fire. 



a fireside chat between friends

Mike: I’d like to talk with you. I mean I’d like to really talk with you. We’re talking right now, but, you know… I don’t know. I don’t feel like I can be close to you. I mean we’re close. Right now we’re close… but, I mean…

Scott: How close?


Mike: I don’t know… whatever. 

Scott: What?

Mike: What do I mean to you? 

Scott: What do you mean to me? Mike you’re my best friend.

Mike: I know. I know I’m your friend. We’re good friends, and it’s good to be, you know, good friends. That’s a good thing. 

Scott: So? 

Mike: So, I just… that’s okay. We can be friends. 

Scott: I’d only have sex with a guy for money. 

Mike: Yeah, I know. 

Scott: And two guys can’t love each other. 

Mike: Yeah, well, I don’t know. I mean, for me, I could love someone even if I, you know, wasn’t paid for it. I love you and you don’t pay me. 

Scott: Mike…

Mike: I really wanna kiss you man.  

This whole scene was beyond heartbreaking. Mike allowed himself to be vulnerable and express his feelings only to be rejected. This is a situation that I am sure many of us have found ourselves in and unfortunately one that I found myself in only a few years later. It hurt me and I let that hurt fester inside me for a very long time. In truth, it still affects me 30 years later as it is very difficult for me to allow myself to be vulnerable with not only potential lovers but people in general.  As a community we like to think that we've come a long way since the 1990's but in today's hook up culture I find myself asking "can two men [really] love one another"

- Carolina Dean 



Thursday, June 8, 2023

Being and Bosom Buddies

 

Peter Scolari and Tom Hanks star in Bosom Buddies on ABC 

In an earlier entry in this blog series, I wrote about Jack Tripper of Three's Company (1977). Jack was a heterosexual man who had to pretend to be gay in order to share an apartment with two women in Santa Monica in the mid to late 1970's.  Today I would like to share with you the story of Henry and Kip -  two heterosexual men living in New York City in the 1980's, who had to pretend to be women in order to have affordable housing. 

Bosom Buddies aired on ABC from March 1980 to November 1982 lasting just two seasons. It was a sitcom in the buddy comedy genre that starred Tom Hanks as Kip Wilson (Buffy) and Peter Scolari as Henry Desmond (Hildegard). Kip and Henry worked at an advertising agency as a graphic artists and a copywriter respectively. In the pilot episode, their apartment is demolished (while they slept) and they are left with no other choice but to dress as women in order to rent an apartment at the Susan B. Anthony Hotel - a cheap apartment building exclusively for women. In addition to allowing them to have a place to live, the men also thought that the experience would make a great book. 

A typical episode revolves around the men navigating both their personal and professional lives while maintaining their secret. In the second season, the men open their own advertising agency and most of the principle characters discover that the women are actually men and so the drag elements of Bosom Buddies was downplayed. 

I vividly recall being a child playing Pong on a little black and white tv while my parents watched an episode of Bosom Buddies on the larger family tv in the living room. Even as a six year old I thought it far stranger that men were not allowed to live in the same building as women. However, having since done some research I learned that this was actually a very common practice from the 1920s to the 1970's as a mean by society to protect a woman's virtue (i.e. control them). In the early days of these "Women's Hotels", there were strict rules that residents had to follow which included mandatory prayer and bans on male visitors. 

Interestingly, the show never did a gay episode and the men's sexuality was never questioned. However, in the 11th episode of season one Henry and Kip (dressed as women) prevent a robbery and end up on tv. Henry's mother having seen the news clip recognizes her son and comes for a visit prompting Henry to have to explain to his mother why he is dressing as a woman. The conversation between Henry and his mother plays out much like a coming out experience with mother and child learning that it doesn't matter what other people think or if they don't understand your decisions. A sentiment which echoes the show's theme song (see link below) "My Life" by Billy Joel. 



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Tuesday, June 6, 2023

Profiles in Courage: Beverly Lasalle

 


Beverly Lasalle was a female impersonator / entertainer, played by Lori Shannon (1938-1984) who appeared on three episodes of the controversial 1970's era sitcom All in the Family. They were 

  • Archie the Hero 
  • Beverly Rides Again 
  • Edith's Crisis of Faith, Part 1  
In her first appearance (Archie the Hero) Beverly passes out while a passenger in Archie's cab. Archie's performs CPR on Beverly to save her life and the incident is subsequently picked up by the media. Archie is humiliated when it is revealed that Beverly is actually a man in drag. Sympathetic to Archie's feelings and not wanting him to suffer any public humiliation, Beverly explains that Archie did not give her CPR. 

Beverly returns to the Bunker household a year later to celebrate Archie's "kiss of life" and invites Archie and Edith out to dinner. At first Archie resists but then he sees the opportunity to get revenge on his friend Pinky who is known for his practical jokes. Archie intends to set Pinky up with Beverly and then reveal that he is a man. However, Archie is unaware that Pinky knows that Beverly is a man which ruins the prank. Archie ultimately gets his revenge at the end of the episode when Pink's girlfriend shows up and catches him on a "date" with a man. 

In her final appearance on All in the Family, Beverly (dressed as a man) visits the Bunkers to let them know that she will be playing a show at Carnegie Hall after Christmas. Mike, Archie's son-in-law, offers to walk Beverly to a cab as he is on the way to buy a new star for the Bunker's Christmas tree. However, on the street Mike and Beverly are mistaken for a gay couple and are attacked by muggers. Beverly positions herself in between the attackers and Mike taking the burnt of the attack. She is beaten with a lead pipe that ultimately results in her death and Mike escaping with minor injuries. 

As a result of Beverly's senseless death, Edith experiences a crisis of faith and stops attending church. By the end of the following episode Edith comes to terms with Beverly's death and is grateful for having known her. 


- Carolina Dean 

Saturday, June 3, 2023

Ode to Billy Joe

 

"It was the third of June another sleepy, dusty, delta day...." 


Ode to Billy Joe was a song written and performed by Bobbie Gentry in 1967. It tells the story of a young woman (the narrator) who unexpectedly learns that a local boy she knows named Billy Joe McAllister has committed suicide by jumping off the Tallahatchie Bridge. The haunting lyrics tells the story as a series of actions devoid of emotion but does not explain why Billy Joe killed himself  nor does it explain the nature of the narrator's relationship with him. However, the song hints that the two young people share a secret in that they were seen throwing something off the bridge prior to Billy Joe's suicide. Exactly what they threw off the bridge has been left open to interpretation, however, some folks speculate Billy Joe got the girl pregnant and they threw the pre-mature baby off the bridge. 

In 1976 Ode to Billy Joe was made into a film starring Robby Benson and directed by Max Baer Jr (Jethro Bodine from the Beverly Hillbillies). The movie is set in 1953 and tells the story from the perspective of a 15 year old young woman now named Bobbie Lee Hartley. The film clearly shows an attraction between Billy Joe and Bobbie Lee. They wanted to get married but Bobbie Lee's father felt that she was too young. However, there are other obstacles in that we learn that Billy Joe was sexually abuse by his older brother and due to this abuse he became sexually confused. In one instance, he is coerced into seeing a prostitute but is unable to go through with the act. When Bobby Lee offers herself to him sexually and romantically, Billy Joe admits that he has had sex with a man and even though he was drunk and knew it was wrong, he still wanted to do it and in addition he carries the weight of shame over his homosexual experiences. At this point, as in the tie in novel of the same name, Bobbie Lee throws her rag doll off the bridge which some believe represents the last of her childlike innocence thus becoming a mature adult. 

With many people believing that Billy Joe killed himself because he has gotten Bobbie Lee pregnant. she is encouraged to leave town and quietly get an abortion. Rather than tell the truth that she and Billy Joe never had sex, she decided to leave town and let people believe what they will. On her way to meet her bus, Bobbie Lee is met by Dewey Barksdale who was Billy Joe's boss at the saw mill. He was also the man that Billy Joe had sex with. Dewey offers to go back to town and tell everyone the truth, however, Bobbie Lee advises him to keep his story to himself as it would further tarnish Billy Joe's reputation and also ruin Dewey's life as it would leave him open to criminal prosecution. The film ends with Barksdale agreeing to keep his secret and offering Bobbie Lee a ride to the bus station to which she agrees. 

I think that Billy Joe's story is important because it tells us about the dangers of sexual shame, guilt, homophobia, and gossip, as well as the importance of representation and having allies in our community.  I identified with Billy Joe in that I grew up and came of age in a small town in the South. The only other gay people I knew was an old man (formed teacher) who was said to have gotten another man drunk and "corn holed" him. The other gay man I knew of was a morbidly obese ex janitor at my elementary school who had a reputation for providing vulnerable young men with drugs in exchange for sex. 

I didn't want to have anything to do with either of these men, nor did I want to be anything like them. I carried a lot of shame around my sexual wants and desires and even considered suicide at one point in my life before I found my confidence and decided to live my life openly. However, that did not happen overnight. It was a long process of self acceptance and finding other people like me and other people who understood me. In another time (and place) Billy Joe would have seen other people like himself, he would have had other men like himself and understanding friends to talk to about his feelings and experiences. He would have had the opportunity to realize that his feelings and desires were normal and valid for him. 

Even though Billy Joe is a fictional character, he represents a sad segment of our community. Those young men (and women) driven to suicide by bullying, harassment, and the weight of self-hate engendered in them by those who cannot and will not understand or tolerate them. Ode to Billy Joe took place in 1953 and 70 years later the culture of LGBTQ+ hate and intolerance is still going strong in the Trump/DeSantis era and one which we must continue to fight to overcome to prevent future loss of life, happiness, and freedom. 

- Carolina Dean 


Monday, June 27, 2022

WLGBT in Cincinnati

Note: This free article is a part of my ongoing series of content in celebration of Pride Month. Pride Month is celebrated each year during the month of June in honor of those who fought for LGBTQ+ rights beginning with the Stonewall Riots in 1969.



Synopsis - WKRP in Cincinnati 

This American sitcom features employees at a perpetually struggling radio station in Cincinnati Ohio. 

Commentary 

There were no gay characters, that I am aware of, on WKRP in Cincinnati. However, that does not mean that the subject was not touched upon during the course of the show. In fact, Season 1 Episode 3 Les on the Ledge finds news reporter Les Nessman banned from the locker room of the Cincinnati Reds when another reporter refers to him as a "queer duck" which a player misunderstands and then believes that Les is gay.

Fearing for his career and reputation, Les climbs out on a ledge intending to kill himself. His co-workers offer mixed reactions. His station manager, Andy Travis, becomes visibly upset at the mention of the word gay. However, it is the modern, open-minded secretary Jennifer Marlowe who expresses the opinion that "it's nobody's business if he's gay". Les' best friend Herb Tarlek goes back and forth on the issue but finally assures Les that  "it's okay if you're gay". By the end of the episode the misunderstanding is righted and it's back to business as usual for all concerned. 

Re-watching the episode for this brief article, I see how it would be problematic today. Many of the things that were said and implied would not be allowed to be aired now - such as Johnny Fever convincing Herb that Jennifer is a transsexual  in order to get Herb to stop making unwanted sexual advances at her. Although it wasn't handled in the best light, I think that this was a groundbreaking episode for addressing the stigma of homosexuality in the 1970's. 

I actually got to meet Richard Sanders, the actor who played Les Nessman, about 5 years ago at my day job as a Move Coordinator and coordinated his move from Anacortes, WA to Woodinville, WA. I was honored to be able to talk about this episode with him and how it had an effect on me when I was a young man struggling with my own sexuality. I think Herb Tarlek put is best when he said "it's okay if you're gay". 

- Carolina Dean 

Friday, June 24, 2022

Samantha Has Two Dicks ...

Note: This free article is a part of my ongoing series of content in celebration of Pride Month. Pride Month is celebrated each year during the month of June in honor of those who fought for LGBTQ+ rights beginning with the Stonewall Riots in 1969.



Elizabeth Montgomery as Samantha Stephens


We often hear about how brave straight actors are who take on gay roles such as Sean Penn in Milk or Tom Hanks in Philadelphia.  Today I would like to turn that around and share my Top 10 Gay Actors in the Straight Roles that made them famous. 

Here they are in no particular order... 

  • Dick Sargent - The Second Darren on Bewitched 
  • Damon Evans - The Second Lionel on The Jeffersons 
  • Neil Patrick Harris - Doogie Howser 
  • John Mahoney - Martin Crane on Frasier
  • David Hyde Pierce - Niles Crane on Frasier 
  • Anthony Perkins -  Norman Bates in Psycho 
  • Robert Reed - Mike Brady on the Brady Bunch 
  • Sir Ian McKellen - Magneto in the X- Men Franchise 
  • George Takei - Sulu on Star Trek the Original Series 
  • Danny Pintauro - Jonathan on Who's the Boss. 

That's it, that's the list. Thanks for coming by everybody. Have a safe drive home!

- Carolina Dean 

Wednesday, June 22, 2022

Are You Being Served (Shade)?

Note: This free article is a part of my ongoing series of content in celebration of Pride Month. Pride Month is celebrated each year during the month of June in honor of those who fought for LGBTQ+ rights beginning with the Stonewall Riots in 1969.




Synopsis - Are You Being Served? 

In this British sitcom that aired from 1972 to 1985, employees of Grace Brother's Department Store work along side one another each day. 

Commentary 

While Are You Being Served?  featured an ensemble cast, this article will focus on the character of Mr. Humpries, as played by late actor John Inman (1935-2007). I first discovered Are You Being Serviced in the early 90's when it aired late Saturday nights on PBS. I think I fell in love with the show from the first episode I saw. Of course, everyone loves Mrs. Slocombe, but Mr. Humphries really stood out to me as a gay man. 

Mr. Humphries was the senior sales associate in the men's department at Grace Brothers. While he exhibited stereotypically gay behavior and mannerism, including a limp-wristed walk and a high pitched voice,  it was never explicitly stated that Mr. Humphries was gay. Due to sexual and social mores at the time, it could not have been stated that he was gay so Mr. Humphries was often portrayed as a Mama's Boy. In fact, he still lived with his mother even at the age of roughly 37 years old. It should be noted that John Inman, the actor who played Mr. Humphries, was actually gay in real life. 

Mr. Humphries was the absolute queen of one liners, double entendres, and clever comebacks. He was also known for showing up to work wearing outrageous outfits such as a sailor's outfit or scuba gear which necessitates him having to explain his previous nights activities with the usual excuse that he showed up for work dressed inappropriately because he didn't want to be late. While consciously or subconsciously this may have been his way of trying to  come out to his co-workers. 

What I like about Mr. Humphries is that he really was a part of the Grace Brother's family and that he wasn't treated any differently because of his suspected sexuality. Also, I liked that although he didn't live his life completely openly, he lived freely and with good cheer- and that's something that I wanted in my own life. 

- Carolina Dean

Monday, June 20, 2022

Torch Song Trilogy

Note: This free article is a part of my ongoing series of content in celebration of Pride Month. Pride Month is celebrated each year during the month of June in honor of those who fought for LGBTQ+ rights beginning with the Stonewall Riots in 1969.



Synopsis - Torch Song Trilogy 

The story of the life and loves, ups and down, wrongs and rights of a homosexual, drag queen, Virginia Hamm (Nee Arnold Beckoff),  living in New York City  in the 1970's and 80's - told in three acts. 

Commentary

This is another one of those movies that I didn't get to see until it aired late at night on, I think, Turner Classic Movies.  Again, at that time in my life I didn't really know any other gay people, I had no mentors, no role-models, there was no course in How to be Gay 101. Torch Song Trilogy offered me a peak into  the kind of life that I could only dream of having at the time, because I didn't know how to make it so for myself. 

No. I didn't want to be a drag queen. I wanted what Arnold had. I wanted to be free and independent. I wanted a home and friends who loved, respected, and accepted me. I wanted boys to like me, to want me, to pursue me. I wanted options at a time and place in my life when I felt that I didn't have any. 

I have to honest, it is my opinion that Harvey Feirstein wasn't the most attractive man (or woman) but he was able to pull some attractive men! I had a boy crush on Brian Kerwin as Deputy Birdie on BJ and the Bear back in the day. 

There were some very powerful moments in this film that really touched me. Two that really stand out in my mind are when Alan, the love of Arnold's life, is killed in a homophobic attack as well as the confrontation between Arnold and his Ma. 

Arnold: Try and imagine the world the other way around. Imagine every book, every magazine, every TV show, every movie was telling you you should be homosexual. You know you're not, but...
Ma: Stop already, you're talking crazy.
Arnold: You wanna know what's crazy? After all these years I'm still sitting here trying to justify my life. THIS is crazy!

Torch Song Trlology taught me that coming out is a beginning not an ending at that there is a whole life on the other side of it that you have to make for yourself. 

- Carolina Dean 

Friday, June 17, 2022

Wicca: A Gay Perspective

 Note: In observance of Pride Month, I am, sharing this article I wrote 20 years ago when I was actively involved in the Pagan Prison Ministry with WARD (Witches Against Religious Discrimination). I specifically wrote this for publication in the official South Carolina Department of Corrections Wiccan Study Handbook. The Handbook has since been updated and my name removed, but I have my original copy with my name on the front! 


Wicca: A Gay Perspective

The role of homosexuals not only in Wicca but also in other religions has been a tumultuous one. History has seen the homosexual go from the position of an accepted and revered shaman, to an abomination and outcast, and presently to the position of one who must reclaim their spiritual role in society.

The religion of our ancient ancestors was based on observations of nature. It was believed that everything was inhabited or controlled by a spirit (this belief is called animism), that is, a spiritb controlled fire, wind, rain, spirits inhabiting mountains, streams, trees, etc… As time passed, these spirits became the first Gods known to mankind, and these Gods were believed to be hermaphrodites, essentially having both male and female characteristics (physical and non-physical), since they possessed the power to create all things. 

In ancient Greece, early depictions of Zeus indicated that he was hermaphroditic. In modern times, these qualities carried over in the story of the birth of Dionysus as well as Athena. It is said that Hera, angry over Zeus’ infidelity, killed the mortal woman who was carrying his child, Dionysus. Zeus was unable to save the woman, but was successful in planting Dionysus in his own thigh, from which he was born months later. In another instance, Athena (the Goddess of Wisdom) was born when she sprang forth from Zeus’ head. 

Since Nature and the Gods were so intertwined, those who explained Nature also explained the Gods. These people were the shamans, who acted as healer, priest, magician, and counselor to their community. One of the most powerful, yet obscure, classes of shamans were the Berdache, a term invented by anthropologist from several root meanings meaning “catamite”. Native Tribes find the word offensive and wishing to distance themselves from European concepts of sexuality have replaced the word Berdache with the term Two-Spirit. Two-Spirit implies a masculine spirit and a feminine spirit coexisting in a singular human body. The Two-Spirit was a class of Amerindian Shamans who dressed as the opposite sex and often lived in homosexual relationships. However, it should be noted that a Two-Spirit’s manner of dress cannot generally be an indicator of his gender identity, his social role in the tribe, or his choice of sexual partners.

Some Two-Spirits were effeminate men thought to possess special insight and powers while other Two-Spirits felt called. The call to become a Two-Spirit usually came in early adolescence prior to the male initiation rites, near the age of puberty. The Goddess visited the boy in a dream and offered him his choice of two items, one traditionally associated with males and the other with females. If he chose the female item, he would live, dress as, and be accepted as a woman thereafter. However, some men became Two-Spirit of their own choosing without divine prompting. She would then undergo her spiritual training either by studying with the tribes Shaman, or through self study. The Two-Spirit had a reputation for being powerful shamans because, like the Gods, they were thought to be both male and female and therefore more God-like themselves. In some tribes, the Two-Spirit was considered an ideal mate, due to their magickal prowess and their ability to please their sexual partner. However, not all tribes elevated the Two-Spirit to such an honored position or even recognized them at all; those tribes who did not were those that traditionally valued women in general as lesser than men.

Throughout history, not all cross-dressing was of a homosexual nature, nor did all homosexuality require participants to dress as the opposite sex. The penis has been worshipped as an organ of great beauty and power since ancient times. In ancient Greek Culture, men venerated the penis and make love to one another, usually older men with younger ones. Sexual pleasure was often taken outside the marital bed because women were expected to maintain their virginity until marriage, therefore young men were favored. Some myths tell of Gods engaging in homosexual relationships, Zeus and Ganymede for example. It was believed that only a woman could make a boy, but only a man could make a man. A youth so involved will learn much from his older lover about moral values and being a good citizen. Often from such a relationship, he will mature to be a model husband and father. For thousands of years, humankind’s concept of Spirit remained unchanged. Religion was based on the idea that Spirit took male and female form (sometimes both) each having many images, personalities, and even sexual preferences. The shamans and witches were their representatives on earth.

When Christianity was introduced to Europe it caught on quickly in the cities, mostly among the rich and those no longer closely connected to the land. Entire countries were classified as Christian, when in reality only the rulers of these countries practiced the new religion. With this new religion came new concepts, such as sin, guilt, and shame. Early Christians fought a variety of different religions, many of which celebrated homosexuality as one path to move closer to the Godhead, including paganism. Arguments against homosexuality are often based on passages from the Christian Bible, which make up a minute part of the entire text. Among these passages, one can find arguments both condoning and condemning homosexuality. To understand these passages, one must wade through numerous mis-translations and place them in historical context. One of the most often cited verses against homosexuality can be found in the book of Leviticus Chapter 18 Verse 22, it states:

“Thou shalt not lie with mankind as with womankind, it is abomination.”

The Hebrew word ‘toevah’ translated in this example, as ‘abomination’ doesn’t normally describe a great evil such as murder, but that which is ritually unclean, on the level with a menstruating woman. This concept should tell you a great deal about how ancient Hebrews felt regarding females, their bodies, and their sexuality.

The book of Genesis details the story of Sodom and Gomorrah, which was authored by several writers one thousand to 1500 years after the actual event! In the story, God sees the sin of Gomorrah (no specific sin is mentioned) and decides to destroy the city. However, he later decides that if ten righteous people can be found within their walls, he would not destroy Gomorrah. God sends two angels on a mission to determine if there were ten righteous people in Gomorrah. Once inside the city, Lot recognizes the travelers as Angels and invites them to dinner. The men of Gomorrah surround Lot’s house and ask that the travelers be brought out that they might “know them”. Lot offers his daughters, but the men refuse, and insist that the travelers, who presumably had taken male form, be brought out. The angels blind the men and tell Lot of God’s plan to destroy the city the following morning. Lot and his family flee the city and the story ends with Lot’s wife being turned into a pillar of salt for disobeying God’s order not to look back after leaving the city and his daughters having sex with Lot while he slept in order to conceive children. Gomorra was the only world that Lot’s daughters had ever known. To them, the world had ended and they felt obliged to repopulate it again. Perhaps this is why incest doesn’t incur God’s wrath, yet many people cite this story as God’s punishment for homosexuality. Early church leaders, such as St. Ambrose, thought that this story concerned hospitality; some believed the cities were destroyed for sloth and gluttony. The only sexual sin in this story, other than that of incest, is the men’s intent to rape the angels.

Elsewhere in the Bible, David speaks of the love between Saul and Jonathan. When they are killed in battle, David comments that their love “was wonderful, surpassing the love of women” (II Samuel 1:26). In the Gospels, Jesus never specifically commented on same sex love. Instead he preached a philosophy of universal love and acceptance because even God “maketh his sun to rise on the evil and the good…..” (Matthew 5:44-45). Jesus also preached that men should treat others as they themselves would want to be treated (Matthew 7:12) and to “judge not, that ye be not judged” (Matthew 7:1) Man was seen as God’s children, being “neither Jew nor Greek, neither slave nor free, neither male nor female.” (Galatians 3:38) However, opponents of homosexuality convenient ignore these passages, choosing rather to focus on the others in order to justify their own prejudices.

In effort to convert Pagans to Christianity, Pagan temples were re-dedicated to the Christian God. In some instances, Pagan temples were demolished to Christian churches were built on these sites. Around 1400 ACE the Church began to realize that their efforts to convert Pagans, whose ways were seen as anti-Christian, were not bearing fruit. The Church decided that anyone unwilling to convert should be tortured and, if necessary, killed. In 1484, Pope Innocent VIII endorsed the publishing of the Malleus Malificarum, or Witches Hammer, which served as a manual for witch-hunters detailing how to discover, interrogate, and torture witches. Witch-Hunters were paid large fees for each witch that they convicted, so they didn’t’ care if the accused were really witches. The Church seized the land and holdings of convicted witches, so it became profitable for them as well.

Accusation grew out of hand due to paranoia, greed, and fear. Knowing that discovery meant torture and death, the witches began practicing in small groups under the cover of night. Sometimes one couldn’t trust one’s own friends, and neighbors. Therefore, the witches went into hiding to protect themselves and the craft they practiced. Some witches chose to keep the religion of the Craft in the family, forming Family Traditions, while others opted for the solitary path.

Very little is known about witches from the 1500’s to the middle of the 20th century. In 1951, the last laws against witchcraft in England were repealed, save those dealing with fraud. A man named Gerald B. Gardner came forward and publicly declared that he was a witch. Gardner claimed to have been initiated into a coven of witches a few days prior to the onset of World War II. He felt that the Craft was dying, and that it needed an influx of young people in order to survive. In 1954, Gardner authored “Witchcraft Today,” one of the first books to fairly and accurately examine the subject of Witchcraft. Although the exact age of Gardnerian Wicca is debatable, and how much of it came from traditional sources is questionable, no one can deny that he was one of the first people to make the practice of Wicca widely available.

However, Gerald Gardner was a product of his generation. He espoused a prerequisite of heterosexual working couples in the ritual circle. Many Gardnerian Covens insist on equal numbers of men and woman alternating around the circle. Such a configuration doesn’t allow for homosexual working couples. There is also the insistence that initiation be performed by a Priest or Priestess of the opposite sex, to the exclusion of several alternative possibilities, with the exception of a mother initiating her daughter, or a father his son.

Gardnerian Wicca often surpasses passive heterosexism to the point of open prejudice. Publicly, Gardner did not speak about homosexuality, but his original Book of Shadows speaks volumes. For example, the following passage can be found among the Ordains:

“Man and man, or woman and woman should never attempt these practices together, and may all the curses of the Mighty Ones be on any who would make such an attempt.”

Elsewhere it is permitted in certain instances for the High Priestess to assume the role of the High Priest in ritual, usually when a male High Priest is unavailable; however, the reverse is considered a serious taboo according to Gardner. Further along, the following passage can be found:

“He [the God] resigns all his power to Her [the Goddess}, but the High Priestess should ever mind that all power comes from Him.”

According to Wiccan theology, as espoused by Gardner, the God gives his power to the Goddess by HIS OWN CHOICE for her discretionary use. There is no reason why His representative, the High Priest, cannot draw on His power for the purpose of ritual and magick without the presence of a High Priestess.

Gardnerian Wicca is a source of much of modern Wiccan practice, and it was mostly the product of a man who brought into the religion his own heterosexual fears and prejudices. For almost twenty years, Gardnerian Wicca influenced the average Wicca’s attitude and position towards homosexuals within and without the Wiccan faith.

The sexual revolution of the late sixties was a precursor to the Gay Liberation Movement, which began in the early morning hours of June 28th, 1969, when over 2000 homosexuals rioted in Greenwich Village. The police raided the Stonewall Inn, a gay dance bar, when to their surprise the homosexual fought back! After the Stonewall Riots, homosexuals organized, they marched in peace parades, held demonstrations, and challenged sodomy laws. They even exercised their political power, endorsing pro-gay politicians and were instrumental in the re-election of Mayor John Lindsay and in putting Bella Abzug in congress.

The 1970’s saw the formation of both all male and all female covens, some were homosexual and some were not. One of the homosexual groups was the Radical Faeries. The official beginning of the Radical Faerie Movement can be traced to a 1979 Spiritual Conference, “A Call to Gay Brothers,” held at a desert sanctuary in Arizona. This conference was prompted by Arthur Evans book “Witchcraft and the Gay Counterculture” in which he argued that gay men needed to examine the connection between gay spirituality and old paganism. The gathering and subsequent growth of the Radical Faerie Movement came from a deep spiritual need. Gay men began looking at the role of the shaman and Berdache.

Radical Faeries embraced power in their sexuality, power that the Pagan movement at that time did not acknowledge. Faerie gatherings were places where experimentation took place. Rituals were spontaneous; experiencing energy was preferable to controlling power. According to the Radical Faeries, spiritually cannot be taught, it must be discovered by the individual. These gay men came together during a time of great change in the spirit of brotherhood to encourage, inspire, and support one another in discovering their spirituality.

Through the 1980’s and 1990’s the plight of the homosexual in the Wiccan Religion closely paralleled the plight of the homosexual in mainstream society. Gay rights issues such as gay adoptions, minority status, gay marriages, and inclusion of gays in hate crime laws were and remain topics of much debate. By the close of the millennium, homosexuals gained almost universal tolerance and acceptance within the craft community. Raven Grimassi, in his book “Italian Witchcraft” offers us a modern witch’s view of sexuality. In the Scrolls of Aradia ( a modern compilation of the written and oral teaching of Aradia, a female messiah figure for Italian witches), the Goddess urges her followers to “Share your sexuality with whomever you may, in whatever form your may. For all acts of pleasure are ritual to the Goddess and God. It has been written that you shall be free and so shall you be free in body, mind, and spirit. Remember that pleasure belongs to everyone and rightly so.”

Most intelligent people today will agree that one does not choose to be gay, however, one can choose how his sexuality will impact not only his life, but also the lives of those around him. While our sexuality has an impact on our relationship with the God and the Goddess, we are all individuals with our own ways of accessing the Divine. The challenge of the modern Gay Wiccan is to examine how his sexuality is going to assist him in his search for at-one-ment with Spirit.

The first step in doing this is to accept your homosexuality not as a punishment or burden, but as an opportunity to expand your awareness of masculine and feminine and draw closer to Spirit. As with heterosexual Wiccans, some gay Wiccans feel closer to the Goddess, while others feel closer to the God. Most gay Wiccans will contend that their patron Goddess and God are outward manifestation of their own inner masculine and feminine selves. In any case, the relationship between the witch and the Divine often has a profound healing affect on the witch and assists him in re-shaping his identity.

Another aspect of the homosexual’s purpose in the Wiccan faith is that of a role model. Our very existence is a constant reminder to our heterosexual brothers that their sexual identity does not begin or end with their penis. In working with gay males in ritual, the Goddess is awakened in the heterosexual males.

As we have seen, homosexuals have been a part of all religions since the time that the very concepts on which many religions are based were formed. Homosexual have a definite spiritual role in religion and depending on the culture and the time in history, they have been both accepted and persecuted. As we take these first crucial steps in the new millennium, it is hoped that the homosexual can reclaim his proper role, not only in the Wiccan religion, but also in all faiths. However, before we can truly stand side by side with our heterosexual brothers and sisters in the ritual circle in Perfect Love and Perfect Peace, the Great Work of self-acceptance and self-empowerment must begin with the individual.

Carolina Dean

October 2001

Wednesday, June 15, 2022

One Lie to Live

Note: This free article is a part of my ongoing series of content in celebration of Pride Month. Pride Month is celebrated each year during the month of June in honor of those who fought for LGBTQ+ rights beginning with the Stonewall Riots in 1969.



Ryan Phillipe as Billy Douglas (One Life to Live 1992)  


Synopsis - One Life to Live 

Homophobia enters Llanview when a vengeful young woman claims that the local Catholic Priest (Father Carpenter) is molesting the new kid in Town (Billy Douglas) a clean, cut, all- American Boy who is harboring a secret that he feels could destroy his life. 

Commentary 

First of all, let us address the fact that they made a story about a young boy struggling to come out of the closet and attached it to a story about the sexual abuse of teenagers by Catholic Priests. They even tied it to the AIDS epidemic having Father Carpenter's own brother having died of the disease and the priest's efforts to bring the AIDS Quilt to Llanview. 

Let me be clear that pedophilia (in this case ephebophilia) and homosexuality are two separate things. However, this story arc aired from 1992 to 1993 when the Catholic Sex Abuse scandals were a hot topic as they received national and international media attention. For this reason, I feel like the story was a reflection of the times when even today many people still assume that homosexuals are pedophiles.  

In the summer of 1992 I was 18 years old, just one year older than the fictional character of Billy Douglas - a groundbreaking character who has gone down in history as the first gay teenager on television. I really identified with Billy because I was going through all the feelings and emotions that he was going through as well. In 1992 I was working second shift (4pm to midnight) in the Springs Cotton Mills so I was able to tune in to OLTV each day and follow Billy's story. 

Although the woman in my family were frequent viewers of Days of Our Lives, I'd never really watched or been interested in soap operas. However. I recall flipping through channels one day looking for something to watch when I came upon the scene where Billy comes out to Father Carpenter, who councils Billy to do what he feels is right for him. After that I watched the show every day to see how Billy's story unfolded. Ultimately, Billy was able to find friends, family, and community who loved and supported him. He even got a cute boyfriend before he character was written off the show in 1993 when Billy left town to attend Yale University. 

I think that it was appropriate that this story was broadcast on a television show called One Life to Live. Many closeted gay people often feel like they are living a double life. - one being the life where they try to be what everyone expects them to be and another life in which they are able to be who they really are. I am glad that Billy got the happy ending he deserved when many gay characters are hidden, made the villain of the story,  or end up insane or even dead (by murder or suicide). 

Billy's story arc taught me coming out isn't always easy, but it's always worth it. 

- Carolina 


Monday, June 13, 2022

Normal, is that You ?

 Note: This free article is a part of my ongoing series of content in celebration of Pride Month. Pride Month is celebrated each year during the month of June in honor of those who fought for LGBTQ+ rights beginning with the Stonewall Riots in 1969.




Synopsis - Norman is that You ?

Tucson dry cleaner Ben Chambers (Red Foxx) discovers that his wife Beatrice (Pearl Baily) has run off to Mexico with his brother. He travels to Los Angeles to unburden himself on his son, Norman (Michael Warren) only to find his All-American son's homosexual lover Garson (Dennis Dugan). As he tries to cope with the loss of his wife, Ben attempts to understand his son's orientation. 

Commentary 

I think I saw Norman is that You? in the late 80's or early 90's when it aired very late at night on TBS. Being gay myself, but not yet having come out, I was very excited to see this movie. There're weren't a lot of movies and tv shows about homosexuality at the time and I was both curious and eager to see this film. 

While it was panned by critics, I actually liked Norman. Although he had difficulty with it at first, I was actually surprised that Ben took finding out his son was gay so well. He didn't get violent with Norman (although he did choke Garson), he didn't threaten to kick him out of the family. Yes, he was upset - but he tried to understand. Norman's mother was also very supportive and open-minded about Norman's relationship. 

Typical of the time, the film portrayed Norman and Garcon's relationship through the lens of the heteronormative experience. Norman is portrayed outwardly as "normal", that is , he is young, athletic, and masculine -what we would call straight-acting today. In one scene Ben tests Norman by observing his walk and asking him to say Mississippi (to see if he has a lisp). When Norman passes all the tests, Ben is adamant that Norman cannot be gay. By contrast Garson is everything people expected a homosexual to be at the time (and even today) - that is, the stereotypical limp-wristed, swishy, campy, and effeminate homosexual. 

While I am sure that there are plenty of gay couples out there who fit into this category with one partner clearly designated  as the man and another as the woman (yeah we know it's not really like that, Garson could be a Fem-Top); there are also plenty of gay couples in which these roles are less defined, more fluid, and in some cases non-existent. This was a relationship conceived by heterosexual writers who didn't know better and who possibly thought that Middle America would be more likely to accept. 

That being said, what we find distasteful or even possibly offensive is actually normal for the individuals concerned. Garson showed himself to be a very cheerful, happy and loving person who was comfortable in his own skin and Norman obviously saw something in Garson that he liked. We are not so far removed from the 1970's in our attitudes about masculinity and the toxicity of what it means to be a man. We live in a world where feminine men are seen as less than other men, or as having no value. As an ever so slightly effeminate homosexual myself, this movie helped me believe that just because I don't fit into the idea of what it means to be a man , I still have value and someone could love me just as I am. In my own search for self-acceptance, I look in the mirror and ask myself "Normal, is that you?" to which I proudly reply "Yaaaas, bitch! "

- Carolina Dean 

Friday, June 10, 2022

My Best Advice for Today's Gay Youth

 Pride Month 



Pride Month is annually celebrated in June of each year to honor those who fought and died in the Stonewall Riots.  With that in mind, I would like to share some of my best advice for today's gay youth.

My Best Advice for Today's Gay Youth

1) In a world full of everyone else, be yourself. Do not compare yourself to others. When you compare yourself to another person what you are saying to yourself and the universe at large is that they are somehow intrinsically better than you or they have more value that you do when this is simply not true. Once you stop comparing yourself to others you give yourself the freedom to grow into your own individuality.

2) Everybody makes mistakes and you are no different.  You are going to do stupid things in your life. Your brain is going to want to remind you of every stupid thing that you have ever done. The point is not to dwell on the stupid things but to learn from them and make a conscious effort to move on.

3) What other people think of you is none of your business. Do not allow yourself to be limited by the thoughts and expectations of others. At some point someone is going to have an opinion of you that is not in alignment with who you think you are. At some point someone is going to laugh at you for who you are.  The truth is their thoughts about you have nothing at all to do with you and everything to do with who they are. Their thoughts are a reflection of their selves.

4) Life can be scary, so learn to deal with your fear while you are young. There are going to be times when you will be presented with an opportunity such as speaking in public, defending yourself from a bully, or telling a cute boy that you like him.. you're going to be nervous, you're going to be afraid and that's okay...be afraid, but do it anyway. Your fear will give you strength.

5) Take care of your body. You're going to be together a long time. If you develop healthy habits now you'll age better and live longer.

6) It does NOT get better. Life does not get easier the older you get. YOU get better. YOU get stronger. YOU develop strategies and skills for navigating through this life.

7) Family is important. However family is not always defined by blood. You cannot be strong and independent 24/7, you're going to need friends and family to give you support along the way. Some of you will be born into a family that will accept you as you are and others will have to seek out their families.

8) Love bites... but it heals. Sooner or later you are going to get stung by love, that is, some cute boy (or girl) is going to break your heart. It's natural to be angry at yourself, to do stupid things to get that person back (see #2), to be angry at the other person, to get depressed and draw into yourself and you might think that you will never love again. Sometimes people get stuck in that place and they go through life longing for love but never allowing themselves to be vulnerable to it or to receive it and that is no way to live. Learn to cope with loss and don't give up hope.

9) Three things you should always keep to yourself a) the number of people you have slept with b) how much money you make and c) your goals and ambitions.

10) Gay men, you are not an accessory. Gay men and straight women can be the best of friends and the worst of enemies. Too may gay men allow themselves to sit on the sidelines and  live vicariously through their straight female friends. They can sometimes be seen as a "safe alternative" to straight men allowing straight women to get all the benefits of having a man in their life and not having to deal with the sexual element. For that matter, you should never be made to feel that you are less of a man because you are gay.  It's okay to support, help, and encourage your friends but that support and encouragement should go both ways.